Let the Healing Begin

For many nights I have "let the sun go down in anger."

But yesterday was a very significant day for me and my relationships with two important men in my life... (sparing names.)

I'll try my best not to sound boastful but I succeeded in putting myself aside and after much prayer, introspection, and long time coming confrontation I was able to voice some serious concerns for a few people in my life that for a long time I have not been able to "love" with my actions.

When you are witness to someone or someone(s) you love self destructing it starts to wear on your own personal happiness and sometimes daily functioning.  Harboring resentment and bitterness is poisenous and must eventually be resolved in order to experience the fullness of love and of God's love.  

At the risk of sounding cliche I'll admit that in order to be forgiven one must be able to forgive.   Demons have not yet been cast out however I am sure they have begun to tremble at the possibility that "change" is on the horizon.  They say ignorance is bliss but this is not always true.  Sometimes ignoring a problem only feeds the destruction and to admit that there is a problem is the first step in recovery.  

How things appear on the outside almost never reveals the true condition of what is going on inside.  We are all so good at compartmentalizing our concerns and packing away our "dirty laundry" for another day or until someone else can provide a remedy.  But  yesterday I let my guards down and risked my own reputation of being the "other sister" - or maybe I confirmed being "that sister" who won't keep her mouth shut but for God's sake someone had to say what needed to be said...