Tuesday, May 05, 2009

This Time Last Year


This time last year I was spending my first night in the hospital. TODAY, one year ago, my journey was beginning. I know that may sound silly but I don't even count the day I found out I was pregnant as the start... nor the day I found out it was twins... it was the day I went to the hospital. I remember going to bed on May 4 around midnight (too late, pregnant or not) and being so tired and so swollen and feeling in my heart that something was not right. On the morning of May 5 I called my boss and told her that I needed to go to the doctor and get my blood pressure checked. I went to my OB's office and immediately the nurse looked at me and her words were, "Oh, Laura, you don't look good."

I remember calling Nick on my drive across Taylor Road to Baptist East and saying something like, "Uh they are sending me to Baptist East... triage!?? I have no idea what triage even means? I don't know for how long... maybe you should call in to work and tell them you aren't coming in today and get up here and be with me."

Of course I won't go into the details of tests and checks I endured that day but end of story that day was, "Cool I'm gonna stay a couple nights in the hospital... off work...Chappy's dinners... gotta great book...crossword puzzles...I can do this."

Text messaging from friends and family out the waazooo yada yada... know I idea that just ten days later my life would be so drastically different.

9 comments:

Stephanie said...

I don't know how you feel remembering this but reading it makes my stomach drop a little. I'm so glad I already know the ending to the story, and know that the girls are here and okay.

Laura M. said...

Stephanie, it is so funny you say that because I have been so emotional all week. When I am rocking the girls at night in the quiet of their nursery, kissing their sweet heads I tear up thinking about last year... I am literally still processing the emotions... I think that is the thing with a traumatic event that people don't realize (well I know you do) ... you never really get over it, you get past it but not over it. and out "trauma" was a 2 month long thing so, yea, i still get emotional believe it or not.

Mary Tyler S. said...

totally agree with Stephanie here. Looking at that picture of you still makes me have butterflies in my stomach and a lump in my throat. I remember praying literally all day, everyday - all the while keeping my distance so you could rest and not worry about entertaining visitors.

It was HARD staying away from you. But I felt good about being your liason between some peeps.

Traumatic situations stay with us. and I can describe almost every moment of the day they were born. But ask me about what happened a month ago and I'm blank. I just can't believe it's been almost a year. Where does the time go?

Laura said...

wow jur...answered prayer after answered prayer HE is so faithful. what a god we serve. i will never forget leaving your house the night before the hospital(?) maybe two nights and as we left i told john..jur looks bad. something isn't right. he said baby, she's pregnant with twins what do you want her to look like? thankful for your intuition and that you followed it. jur i am so thankful you are healthy and loving on healthy babies this year.

Kat said...

well, i've only had one ultrasound and i think it was pretty clear that there was just one baby...but i dont' know. I think my body just doesnt' handle all these hormones very well. I'm gonna call my doctor again todayand see if he can give me something to get some relief from the headaches. We'll see:)

The Bean said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABIES!!!!!!!!!!!!

Catie Murphy said...

What a year it has been!!! Happy Early birthday to the girls and a big hoorah for you, girl, for making it through year 1 of Motherhood!!!

Nick M. said...

You should right a new blog yo!

mary said...

I agree with Nick. Are you out for the summer yet???