Sunday, February 15, 2009
What Does it Mean to be Overtired?
For a baby it means not enough naps and too much stimulation resulting in crankiness and the need for a more definite schedule.
For me, the symptoms are:
-irritability when the tv is on too loud early the morning
-the clean laundry is in piles on the ironing board, the extra chair in our bedroom, and the rocker in the nursery
-dirty wine glasses are in a row on the counter
-i stay in my pjs all day because what is the point in getting dressed at 3pm when you have no plans and the babies go to bed at 6pm
-i can't hold any concentration longer than 5 minutes to enjoy sitting down to blog or read a book
-the urge of wanting to shop or go out to eat but we can't afford it makes me anxious
-the urge to want to stroll around the neighborhood is ruined by rain or ear infections which makes me anxious
- the thought of more microwaved green beans and baked chicken nuggets makes me lose my appetite
There comes a point in my week when I realize I haven't treated myself lately and I start to go stir crazy. And by treat myself I don't mean buying a new wardrobe or getting a pedicure. I mean looking around at the house and thinking "it's so nice when the floors don't have a colony of dust bunnies holding an auction for the escaped dryer sheet" or being able to go for a jog and not wondering who I am inconveniencing by not being at home.
I have friends that I don't get to see enough that I miss. I have books that I want to read that are stacked on my night stand. I have blank canvases at Hobby Lobby that long to feel wanted and be displayed. I have split ends that need to be swept up and put out with the trash. I have purple clover in my yard that needs to be cut... wait, that's not my job, thankfully.
My parents always told me, and yours did too I am sure, "just wait until you have kids, then you will watch your life fly by." I can see how there is truth to that. As a working mom I work hard all week M-F 5:30am till 6:30pm and then the weekend gets here and all I want to do is just be. Then a new week starts and you think, "ga, we are half way through February!?" My babies will be one year old in exactly 3 months. One year has gone by almost!? That is crazy. On my next birthday I will be 27. 27 is so not old but I can see the end of my 20's coming fast.
There is a heaviness that weighs on me keeping me from enjoying the small stuff and getting the big stuff done. I posted once this summer about "small tasks, big accomplishments" and found that it is a new season, same situation.
So now, I hit publish post, take the last sip of my cold coffee, get dressed and start doing the things that need to get done. You don't have to be a mom to comment here - what are some of the small task that feel like big accomplishments that you are needing to get done?